Literally just a couple of minutes ago my neighbor died. He died less than 100 feet from me in his bedroom surrounded by many of his friends and family. This is one of those times when I just feel totally helpless as well as useless. As far as I know he had no relationship with the Lord, every time I brought anything up about Christianity with him he seemed totally disinterested. I don't know his family and friends but I went over to his house (unintentionally) just seconds after he had died. Everyone was crying and I just didn't know what to do. I went over thinking he was still alive (but on his way out) in order to try and talk with people and hopefully maybe pray with somebody. Once I got to the house and saw the situation I found the closest guy who wasn't a mess and told him who I was and that I would love to pray with anyone who needed prayer. He said he would pass on the info. I feel helpless. I don't know what else I could have done. I feel useless. I want to help but I feel like there is nothing I can do.
As I sit here and just replay everything that has just happened I feel like there should be some kind of lesson I can take from this. What I am beginning to see is this...I felt like I needed to go over there and let people know that I was willing to pray with them. Why? Because only God can truly bring comfort, however, there is this part of me that feels like I failed. Part of me feels like I was supposed to bring them comfort.
Only God can bring true comfort, not me! I went over there trying to bring God's comfort to people, not mine. So I should not be so upset and feel so useless if they reject me. Ultimately God doesn't need me to bring comfort to those people. Just because they didn't want my attempt at help doesn't mean God isn't working there. God is bigger than me and He is the one that can bring peace beyond all understanding and comfort to those people. Can God use me to bring comfort to those people? Most Definitely! Does He have to use ME to help those people? Most definitely not!
Always remember...we are not God, but tools of God. We were created for HIS mission. Be willing to be used, but don't always expect everything to turn out how you wanted it to or expected it to.
Thanks for reading,